So I had an epiphany today. I AM NOT SATISFIED with my life. What to do now??? How do I continue to do something I don't really care about and how do I find out what I am meant to do? I don't like my life and my choices but I don't know how to get out of them. I really want to be 6 years old again and have my life dictated by someone else. I am not ready to be a GROWN-UP. Seriously. Not ready.

Wow

Wow. So am on call tonight and took a sleeping pill. Not the best idea.

Today

Today I had a job interview. I have a job now, but I want a better one. Does that make me selfish? Shouldn't I just be thankful I have a job? I have a birthday coming up and I feel like I haven't done most of the things I said I would by this time in my life. I feel as though I have failed although I am not sure who I have failed. Myself? Society? My family? Why have I let myself feel guilty for not having babies or being married...there are no rules about when these things have to happen. How do I stop myself from feeling this way? My New Years Resolution is to learn to stop the guilt from dictating my actions and thoughts. To be continued....